Sometimes I disappear from this blog because I have nothing to say. Sometimes I disappear from this blog because I'm too busy enjoying life. Sometimes I disappear from this blog because I'm lazy. And sometimes I disappear from this blog because unexpected messy hard things happen that I don't want to talk about it.
Recently I received an email from someone who read my blog while I was living in Rwanda. She said a lot of kind things that were a great encouragement but a little further down in her email she referenced my one year later post. I don't typically go back and read old posts but in this instance I decided to.
"2012 has been filled with more growth, hardships, tears, joy, love, and fulfillment then I ever thought possible. I really feel like I lived life. And not because of all the things I got to do, but because this year I followed God with my whole heart. I thank God for His plans and for all the ups and downs this year of obedience has brought. I am ready for another year of living."
Sometimes this life doesn't make any sense. Sometimes this life is really hard. Sometimes things don't go the way you thought they would. But always God is in control. Always God has a plan. And always God is good.
2014 has held some of the highest highs and some of the lowest lows and as I look ahead to 2015 I can honestly say I have no idea what God has in store, but even with my blindfold on, I am stepping out in faith, reminded that through a heart seeking after Christ and His plans awaits a life well lived.