But I’m not writing today to tell you about my failed attempts at dating (or lack there of), rather I am here to tell you what a dummy I was thinking those moments were “struggles/hurdles/trials. Because, well folks, you guessed it, the real-deal-biggest-trial-yet has arrived and is currently in full swing making me long for those blissful days when my biggest concern was that one boy that didn’t like me back.
Originally when this trial made its ugly appearance I relied slowly on myself which only resulted in a very mean, ugly, and depressed version of the lovely lady that is currently typing the poetic words before you. I didn’t know how to deal and instead of actually doing that one thing that made sense aka turning to God I curled up in a ball with a “why me, why now” attitude. Lovely. It took me a couple of days to crawl out of the ball and finally reach for the book with all the answers. I spent hours reading and praying and through out that time I felt God slowly lifting that burden off my back and placing it on His own. I felt Him wrap His arms around me, reminding me that I am not alone, I will never be alone. God’s got it, He has it under control. I actually felt the truth from James 1:2,3 come alive.
Some verses that really stuck out during my alone time;
Isaiah 43:2-4 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, now will the flame burn you. For I am the Lord your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior”
1 Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you.
Phillippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hears and your minds in Christ Jesus.
1 John 3:1 How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God. And that is what we are!
1 John 5:3,4 This is love: to obey His commands. And His commands are NOT burdensome for everyone born of God overcomes the world!
I am still dealing with this trial, it’s not easy and definitely not fun, but I do find joy in the fact that through this trial I feel closer to God and His truth. I am wrapped in His arms and that is where I will remain.